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Monday, November 16, 2009

the second snow in Qiqihar, life river floats.

this is a unexpected post, for latest post just days ago. however, baby recently had a haircut and a bath, which delayed 2 weeks for his heat, too wonderful to miss, just amid the second snow of 2009 in this eccentric northeastern China city.

this week i finally got my google wave, a powerful real time collaborative online publish tool. there r already bulks of talk about the breakthrough the google new service brought, but in my view, its a kind of tool let everyone readily and easily setup a personal forum or chatroom. its really helpful, esp. for a Chinese, who is used to limit their opinions or intimacy within small private groups or forums. that's why in China forum ran so long and still a main social media for most of Chinese Internet users. the freak of China authority also likes to see the limited spread of information as well as public opinions, felt safe trapped them in forums which mostly close and membership required to join communications there. the most popular instant message tool, QQ, also set many limits one can own a group, and the size of the group, and needless to say the backend harsh keywork censorship and event logging for the police.

its a long time when i waiting for my google wave, but its too soon to see it grows into ripe. the speed of communication on Internet likely turns more concurrent, google wave surely shown the trend, but still its public page/url based allow more solitary and worthwhile consolidation of knowledge and its improvements. looking into its future, i really feel quite bright. it rightly paves the gap between blog and instant message, results into a moderner publication media.

last week is a more or less miserable week, for i in 2 or 3 days busy in office, where the shit monitor absent for his father-in-law bought a new house, and took him there to help decoration, so the corporate lan wire he occupied can be adopted by me. so i missed waiting and saluting to the tall girl likely newly employed by QRRS, my once and long time employer. the weather also pale, let me felt gloomy. but now, the second snow surely kills, kills the evil and destroys the spies and surveillance cast over me and my Royal of China. i hope i led to the girl steadily, and God grant my beloved sooner joining my new life in this year end.

baby son these days tentatively increases threshold to bail me from approaching or kissing him, who likely contented or was encouraged to show contented with affection from his mother and his mother's family. his mother, emakingir, indeed very cheap, tries all means to cater to baby son's sometimes unreasonable dependence, to smother him in her poison love soups. that's all her and her family's plot to evil convert my baby son into their heir. God sees what a laugh it can be.

last night i taught baby and his mom another lesson, when ema clanged to a hot TV series nowadays on CCTV, the monopoly domestic media, that China nowadays' authority, CCP, mainly got their fortune from being a soldier, so long history of the republic bragging worker, including soldier, and defames scientists as a group. but the world of citizen all animals, none left in the end of their lives, except scientists and knowledge they gathered. baby first refused to sleep alone me, amid his parents, but later did after quite some silent moment echoing my powerful comment.

OK, its time to bid farewell. my dear girls, Masheng, zhou, Taiwan girl, Lü and Jiang, i badly need ur love in this boring season. my road here seemingly leading me toward the girl in my once work unit, but my eyes wide open, my palace spaciously empty for u. i wide and bewilderingly searching u from the vast starry sky. closer to me, my God, my beloved!

From baby son's haircut&bath

playful baby on the snow heap.

From baby son's haircut&bath

baby rest amid the haircut.

From baby son's haircut&bath

DON'T itch me: baby in bath.

for picasaweb blocked within China mainland, here part of recent photos hosted domestically.

with my toys: baby in bath.
 
messy hair ends: baby having haircut. 






Wednesday, November 11, 2009

bright days, new life pending.

these days mostly sunny days, with warm air and enlightening sun ray. this week i enjoyed my working space a lot: with twitter updates in view, and instant message of most accounts ready at fingertip. what's most exciting, i got google voice for 3 family google accounts, in the cheat of American user. even now i don't have a single friend outside of inland, i still felt quite contented with the powerful tool google offers. i in view the day China united with the freedom world in borderless clearly. i envision China can be a interesting and respectable partner of the fruitful Christian culture.

also we got quite some social sites interwoven. i finished the needed authentication to let post to my facebook, twitter via 3rd part tools, like seesmic or brizzly, both too nice to miss. i see its quite right to make full use of this kind of posting against spying eye from day to day harsh China surveillance. the world of cyberspace merging into coherence while China authority tries all its means to separate China from the world democracy, Chinese to global citizen.

this week we less gamed, for after experience so many breathtaking large games, baby son and me both loathed to try less interesting games, or small games. but a recent release, "De blob", attracted him 2 nights. he gamed it alone. we also picked his favorite game, "Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Balls", we made progress in once dead lock in another large game.

its a peaceful warm winter afternoon now. i didn't saw the tall girl in QRRS for 2 days, in the rush time of QRRS, my once and long time employer, a state-owned enterprise. last time when i shown my salute from my office window, she abrupt cut way to the other side of the road just under my window with her female companion. i see its a signal of her loath of waiting and being watched. the coming 2 days i busy in office, missing the rush time people's flow outside of the lane. i really don't intend to do anything, i trust God to bring me my beloved. and by the way, now i want to attend my baby till he grows 8 years on the earth. on the other side, i would never miss a chance to live in the harmony with my girl, in warmth of new life.

its work time now. dogs around biting heavily as usual. the day before yesterday i decided to give up the inspire upon a cute girl in the community of 139.com, a affiliate of the monopoly of Chinamobile. i got holy message that the name is complicated for me, for my longing for sanity and dewy, longing of pure girl. i see ever brighter future of my love.

bye for now, all my beloved. i pray u r in right mood and feeling love of the blessed, love of peace. winter coming, chill gathering, but lasting is the saint and pure light heart.

From Life as it extends

the road every day baby son, warren zhu, took the bus to his kindergarten. the far end is railway telcom.

From Life as it extends

the best beloved, warren zhu, hope of China and God of universe, in fighting game, in his mom's house, with his new pants.

From Life as it extends

sunset, tower, and ravens' gathering in early winter in Qiqhar.


new moon appears early in early winter dusk.
 
baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, in his fighting game, with his favorite new pants. 


more of scene of early winter in Qiqihar, northeastern China:






Tuesday, October 27, 2009

golden Autumn in light show. Holy dream

these weeks a bit busy, for the freedom world offers so many invalueable stuff. in these weeks, my family sites continued to expand, now including delicious accounts, which now support yahoo account's automaitcally login; tumblr blogs, which so powerful while so fit; seesmic, a twitter client can help me bypass the deadly blocking of twitter from China surveillance; and tweet.im, an autoposting service binding with gtalk account. i also seeing family site expanding within demestically, including 139.com, an affiliate of the monoply company, China mobile, and dii.cn, a twitter clone with neat interface. since yesterday, i felt i should preserve family 2 new namespace, riveryog for me and warozhu for baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China and God of universe, with facebook, the best and largest social network. China surveillance likely blocking facebook's sms service within its sovereign, for i tried several mobiles, none can receive facebook's verifying code in sms. i tried to reach out a Taiwanese among my google contacts, but his mobile also can't receive my facebook's verifying code.

these weeks mostly sunny days. with God's beam, i like to fly at will. China surveillance blocking more and more famous sites, including google sites, goole apps, tumblr, hellotxt, posterous, and yahoo meme, but i was never daunted, each time i lose an open voice channel, i would try to compensate with new reach out to more brilliant western world sites. God's message never fade, or wind-gone, but populate springly. i enjoy seeing my future people voice here now, a missing treat for my loneliness i suffered so far in this eccentric corner of northeastern China. i enjoy the virtual team in God's shine, upon every directions of the globle.

its also mostly lightened days, with so many games. baby son made every free moment gamed on my new notebook with my companion, imersing in games like "frontline" or "call of duty". play games is my long time dream, esp. when i saw quite less informed persons also enjoy themselves a lot in games, esp. first person shotting. i always love to see the advanced applications of artifical intelligence, or complicate interactive between human and robot or machine system, like games. but previously i always engaged in stuff more concrete, like download, resource management, site building, learning, etc. but baby's invitation these days drew me into hot games so deep and so imersing, that i really felt the world of colorful and possible.

its a bright moment now, seeing sunshine over the trees parrel to office window. dog on facing desk biting heavily, as usual, and the dead roaming in the corridor. i enjoyed so many golden moments in my life. last night, i asked baby son to sleep alone me, he did after some time of play. in mid night, all of us, including his mother, emakingir, woke up, in God's set, to celebrate the love and glory. i just dreamed of a lonely pilot, who fight persistantly. God shown me what's manly and what's the ultimate hardness and grace a blessed can be. i again, after many times seen before in the end of holy dreams, the mightiest God, and the non-impossible.

yes, gays and dogs biting now around. killing them just a matter of seconds. i see my second wife, Masheng, from Japan, changed this morning my bank deposit book into a deposit card, i saw the wells of my family never plentier and stronger.

at noon i again saw the tall girl in QRRS, walking passed my office window. i sticked my head outside of the window, likely she noticed me. she is tall and fit, i hope God don't train more me harsh and coarse with loneliness and ever harder hopes in perished.

Ok, now, Omen, God, save my Empire, bring me my beloved.

From Life as it extends

benzrad, me, proud dad, holding baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, for a shot by emakingir.

From Life as it extends

a corner view of south park, near emakingir's house. baby playing his scooter with his mom's companion.

From Life as it extends

bright beaming: baby son, warren zhu, in a lol.

more of my Autumn weekend hauntout.


  
  
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Thursday, October 15, 2009

wrest with China surveillance.

its now golden season here in northeastern China. bright sunshine in most days, and warm&crisp air conveys the golden bliss. i enjoyed pc games more and more with baby son, who rightly a savvy gamer, and insatiable entertainment sitter. every night when i lay down on bed alone him and his mother, i just feel too precious a day it was. i hold his bear and smooth foot, and amazed by God's glory.

but now all things so bright. the China authority resolved to challenge the common sense. quite some lames supposed the tighten surveillance will loose after the special period of National Day march, but it was not the case in this year and this time. the loser broke the mind, doomed to farewell to its once appealing, doomed to separate China with the world, peaceful people with the docile. the Internet censorship turning more and more harsh and smooth most free mind and good wishes Chinese hold so far under the faked forged socialism.

these days my pc os was hacked, or my web traffic under arbitral filtering. my web traffic never overlap 90KB/s, since yesterday the grandma clean the house and i also at the moment refurnish my os with common software's update. in last 2 days i tried lots of way to make clear what's wrong with the lagging and sometimes unstable Internet traffic. but most of my works led lighter to the endeavor of hidden dark hand over my os and my account or audit or filter in my Internet ISP's router or network hardware. net neutral, a purpose pushing in US, a far cry and forever utopia for Chinese in Socialism dome, just like its doctorate died decades among the bloody red starred geopolitics. but i know world aligns to change, including the dying China mainland, as God promised me, as the Empire in my title and host from hundred years ago from my glorious ancestor. China determined to change, since the history of the world. the dying sin let to supervise the scary land in these years, was ordered to leave now. a brighter sky encompassing the land emerging from the dim and dark.

OK, its sunny now outside of my office. i was the blessed to own the vast land, China. i was testified to claim here again, as the theft of state nowadays frequent deaf due to their greediness.

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby bathed at home in warm late Autumn

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby watching his mom gaming and enjoy team gaming.

more of my bath.





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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Temporary while forever lasting pleasure of now

the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games' download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle's playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby's mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent.

these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful.

its a gloomy morning. i don't fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.

 

From baby son, warrenzh's works

baby's work.

From My second notebook, an Acer AS4736G

my second notebook, her membership of my family since Aug 28th, 2009.

From Life as it extends

an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day.